I want to. So badly.
I realise I've beeen really really stupid and ignorant.
I took everything for granted.
Life, God, myself, Love.
Every decision i made,
every path i chose to undertake,
obviously came with a consequence.
And ive been IGNORANT.
I blatantly chose to be bad.
And thats the worse part.
Even when i know its wrong
i still chose to do it.
I heck the consequences.
That isnt what i want to become.
I want to become someone with a heart of gold.
A strong beautiful character.
Full of conviction, faith and believe.
Wise, compassionate and forgiving.
A genuinely good soul.
I know it takes GUTS to accomplish such,
but i pray to Allah the Almighty Being,
please please please give me the strength,
Guide me with your wisdom and patience,
Lift me from the ground i have fallen on,
Grant me with your love.
Because im ready.
IM READY TO CHANGE.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Marks & Spencer
HAPPY 2011!!!
Omg I'm like 18 days late in wishing.
Im extremely sorry my sexy blogg.
Soooo, 2011. 20 YEARS OLD!
It sounds really old doesnt it?
With the number 2 in your age.
Looks like i have to step-up ALOT this year.
Lots of self-development to accomplish
in fulfilling my plans of becoming
a strong respectable successful beautiful young woman:D
Anywaysss, its been more than 2 weeks since
I started working at Marks & Spencer,
And i cant believe how excited I feel to finally
resign from the job. Haha
Not to say that i was THAT tormented during work hours
Just that I feel deprived of quality time for myself
working 8/9 hours 6 times a week, get what i mean?
And HOORAYYYY! its my last day today, how incredibly awesome is that?
The only thing i will miss i guess is the fact that I will be
spending lesser time with my beloved NOI-A
since we wont be working together anymore:(
Anyway life has its major ups and downs nowadays.
And the transition can be a bit(no, scratch that,VERY)difficult at times,
Adjusting to new responsibilities, dealing with newfound insecurities and whatnot.
But one thing's for sure,
For the past few years, its been impossible for me to let go
of the things that pull me back from flight,
and this year I'm definite, It's time.
I've changed like a whole lot, i realise.
and i kindof feel like i went backwards.
Was too weak, too tangled up, too deep in a swamp.
Im climbing out and I wont look back anymore.
I AM going to LOVE myself again.
Omg I'm like 18 days late in wishing.
Im extremely sorry my sexy blogg.
Soooo, 2011. 20 YEARS OLD!
It sounds really old doesnt it?
With the number 2 in your age.
Looks like i have to step-up ALOT this year.
Lots of self-development to accomplish
in fulfilling my plans of becoming
a strong respectable successful beautiful young woman:D
Anywaysss, its been more than 2 weeks since
I started working at Marks & Spencer,
And i cant believe how excited I feel to finally
resign from the job. Haha
Not to say that i was THAT tormented during work hours
Just that I feel deprived of quality time for myself
working 8/9 hours 6 times a week, get what i mean?
And HOORAYYYY! its my last day today, how incredibly awesome is that?
The only thing i will miss i guess is the fact that I will be
spending lesser time with my beloved NOI-A
since we wont be working together anymore:(
Anyway life has its major ups and downs nowadays.
And the transition can be a bit(no, scratch that,VERY)difficult at times,
Adjusting to new responsibilities, dealing with newfound insecurities and whatnot.
But one thing's for sure,
For the past few years, its been impossible for me to let go
of the things that pull me back from flight,
and this year I'm definite, It's time.
I've changed like a whole lot, i realise.
and i kindof feel like i went backwards.
Was too weak, too tangled up, too deep in a swamp.
Im climbing out and I wont look back anymore.
I AM going to LOVE myself again.
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