Frustrated.

First thing first.


Im not like most teenagers my age..
Im not granted complete freedom,
i cant go out anytime i freaking want to.

So its inevitable,
that in a week, there is a limit to how much i can hang out
especially at night.
Since thats the time my parents are back from work
and when it is especially significant and obvious to them
if im not present at home.

And yes im just damn irritated and angry right now,
because i have been fighting with my parents who have been
complaining excessively abt how i always 'merayap' nowadays.

In the past,
i always try my best to make sure
that they dont get the impression that i go out alot
because i always ensure that im at home whenever they are

i can go out late once in a while
but not freaking everytime
besides i have to go out with friends too
and i have to do alot of catching up with a handful of them


i dont think this is a good thing
arguing with my parents abt this annoying issue
as a daughter i have to listen to them
even if i feel like its unfair,
the way they grant me such limited freedom
when im already reaching adulthood.
But i understand different people have different mindsets on parenting
so if my parents are like that
i have to deal with it.

If if feel like my life sucks because of the way they parent,
then i shall be a better and more understanding one in e future
so my children wont have to feel as bitter as
how im feeling right now

so thats it.
I've made a decision.
Whatever pressure i have to deal with
however impossible it is to meet up with anyone
in the day instead of at night
im not going to risk my responsibility as a daughter
to obey my parents' commands

even if it means i have to forfeit
a great deal of fun memories i can have
in my youth,


I CANT GO OUT AT NIGHT ANYMORE.


And if anyone cant understand or accept that,
then maybe you're not a true friend after all.


Im not looking for someone thats not gonna make me a better person.
So if there is really no other way you can come to terms with that,


you know what to do.