i wana do this

I got back physics

totally screwed it

less than 30, can u believe it?

i've never gotten such a shitty grade in my ENTIRE life

ohwell but i did deserve it

i do, really

implementing my evening exercises scheme

aha

ouh and that ideal diet plan

i so wana get toned and HAWT mann

im sick of delaying

and procrastinating

and not doing anything

to eliminate all those negative ugly

points in my life

i know i've broken so many self vows and promises

CHANGE cant be forced

totally obvious and evident frm my family life

im not promising myself or anyone anymore

im just gona CARRY IT OUT

no shitt questioned

watch me.

Niksy-ing

So i went NIKITA-ing today
:)

Niks called me and woke me up at 9
and nagged like a raggedy old granma
for me to get ready and get my ass to the bus stop
Went to potongpasir to end up in lil INDIA
-maybe she was expecting to run into ppl?-
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee A.S
then we filled our tummies at lil india
and drank yummy yummy lassie
we talked and talked and talked just like old times
and she managed to drag me to tpjc
where i SELIT into her indian dance class
funn funnn. an intersting nice outing=)




hhmmmmm..
SUPERFICIALITY.
i bet it exists everywhere
i mean like duhhh
it DOES exist everywhere
noticced it since a long time back
those judgements that occur in society
the Categorisation
So do i think i AM superficial?
honestly,
i rate myself as 56.5% superficial
ok fine i admit
i AM superficial to an extent
but theres always that other 43.5% part of me=/

I cant seem to be happy
knowing that im not with the BEST
or at least like one of the good ones
i feel as if i brought down my standards
that i stooped and compromised
just because im:
COWARDLY
i absolutely refuse to get hurt
i ran away from 'the challenge'
and settled for a SAFE option
even if the one i compromised with
is not as good as one shld be

This is all retribution.
from straying from the path
from going against all the promises and vows i made to myself
Its never too late to remedy the situation
its NEVER too late




i pray for faith,
i pray for hope.
Allah,
please be with me
Let me be LOVE,
and let love be ME.

rivalry between genders

I breezed through my last physics paper.

urhh yeah right

"bullshitted"s more like it

i actually malfunctioned halfway through the paper

yeah, can you actually believe it?

i stopped thinking and succumbed to SLACKING

during an exam ehhhh

during. an. exam!

doodled and scribbled away

like nobody's business

alrighto.

'nuff about lameshit failing sch stuff.

lets talk about BOOYYSS

''oooooooohhhhh" right?

i've always referred to guys, boys, the alpha male to be exact

as an entirely foreign kind of species

i was completely brought up in a strictly all girls-environment

guys was like "eeeeeeeewwwwww" to me

u see,

the only impression i got about them

is that theyre a bunch of extremely awful TEASERS

MONSTERS who vowed to make my life a living hell

thanks to my guy cousins that is

but Now,

maybe, just MAYBE

boys are just like girls too

excluding the facts that theyre farty burpy jerks

who have a high level of testerones and RAGING hormones

teehheeee

omigosh i sound so male-chauvinistic yea?

the truth is all those negative impression's starting to fade away slowly

cos ive got such nice sweet case studies in my life

tho i cant particularly generalize

cos there tend to be bad ones out there

While i may think like this

i cant deny the fact that

there MIGHT be a guy who thinks the same way about girls

maybe living right across the globe

so cute isnt it?

male n female rivalry

oh how fun.;D

Individuality

How much can i sacrifice for love?

now thats a measure of faith

The subject of individuality balances on

a thin complicated thread of constant delusions

i dont geddit

not to say i cant get it

but right now, No.

Different species of human beings exist in this world:

1. those who willingly accept stuff thrown in their face

2. those who QUESTION the stuff thrown in their face

3. and those who know and disapprove of stuff thrown in their face but are too cowardly too go against them.

Which category do u fall into?

well, in particular.

i happen to know this individual whos an extreme case of species (2)

i totally respect and adore his/her courage and ferocity to stand up for his/her own beliefs

but wats life without BALANCE?

My life experience of 17 years taught me,

an open heart and a 'think out of the box' attitude

never puts anyone to a disadvantage.

a stubborn and narrow-minded character

will suffer in all ways possible

one might say, however, if ur too acceptng

u'd be SUPER vulnerable and easily influenced.

did i say u have to let go of your own beliefs?

what im appealing for here is for one to ACCEPT and ACKNOWLEDGE

there exist all sorts of possibilities to the image TRUTH forms

why must any human being go to such an extent

to being an EXTREMIST?

i guess thats when the law of individualism comes into view

EVERYONE,

no matter how they were nurtured,

despite their backgrounds,

has a completely differnt UNIQUE mind of their own

life works in such funny ways

how do one pull through?

i guess thats for any lover who'll survive to figure out on his/her own.

ARE YOU READY?

ever ever, EVER.

Somehow, i've never deemed myself as the diary2 kind of individual

thoughts and rants and ideas

all stored somewhere in my head

i mean why should i waste the effort to list all of them down?

when its soo much more convenient to keep them in my treasure box

right here in my mind

HOWEVER,

i realise

i have problems.

Problems, translating these thousands of thoughts into words

Its time i upgraded.

kick my lazy ass goodbye

and say hello to that new nerdnerd hardworking "woman"

hah.

this, coming from a girl who has

million n billions of extinct blogs

honestly fadilah,

when can u fully understand the meaning of COMMITMENT.

nevermind,

we'll see, WE'LL SEE.